WTF

Why are relationships such a pain in the arse? Or better yet, why do they often end up one sided. It would seem that one person always seems to get more in to a relationship than the other. How often do couples actually stay in to each other at the same level through out the length of their life. Why do we even bother? Why do I bother?

Know what I want? I want someone who is capable of appreciating the devotion I'm ready and willing to give. Someone who can show appreciation, not just say "thank you" and think that's enough all of the time. Know what I do when someone goes out of their way for me, when someone does something nice and caring; I look for the next opportunity to repay the favor. I guess there really are two types of people in this world. Those that are good at giving and those that are good at receiving and the two traits are rarely in the same person.

So frustrating, to the point I just don't want to deal with it anymore. I'm so tired of trying; so tired of thinking that what hollywood makes us believe is possible in relationships is actually possible. It would seem that only a few get to experience that sort of outcome and I'm beginning to think I'm not one of them.

And then the phone rings and you realize once again that you're being freakin' paranoid!

I'm done.